Hypergiant

I'll break you down
I'll take you down, down
Fill you with sadness
Make your life madness

I'm having a hard time
I'm making you do the hard time too.
I'm stuck in a bad way
And I'm gonna make you pay for it.

Give me a mile
I'll take a hundred miles
Such a mistake
Sorry you make

I'm having a hard time
I'm making you do the hard time too
I'm stuck in a bad way
And I'm gonna make you pay for it.

I'm having a hard time
I'm making you do the hard time too.
I'm stuck in a bad way
And I'm gonna make you pay for it.

I'm having a hard time
I'm making you do the hard time too.
I'm stuck in a bad way
And I'm gonna make you pay for it.

I know you're here
I know you're gone
I never asked you to stay
I'm waking up, baby
Now tell me, are you ok?

I really need to break down and hurt. I need to fall apart.
This is going to be messy.
I am going to the ocean. At night. Not sure when. But it has to be soon. I ponder the possibility of death. But I need to be wholly consumed by something. And water has always been a comfort. I am, however, to the point where taking a long shower or bath is more frustrating than helpful. And that is a very bad sign.
Can we find a synonym that represents a more terrifying and dread-filling emotion than Ominous?

I want to wait for a storm. I want to wait for the sea to be a reflection of myself. A raging mass of consumption and confusion rending it's insides out and up; spilling upon the land all of it's horrible secrets and terrible deeds even as it bitterly and viciously erodes it away.

Let's see this Hypergiant go Black Hole...